Tuesday, October 1, 2013

TURBULENCE


Priya's first flight went smoothly.  I had spent two months prior worrying about the potential for disaster of flying alone with her to Montana, but she was an amazing travel partner!  We had a great time!  She got loads of attention when we got there, met her great-granddad, cousins, and Uncle Craig, went shopping, watched her cousin play volleyball, went to kindergarten to see her aunt's class, visited her grandparents at their workplaces, and pet a a teeny, tiny puppy.

Unfortunately, the turbulence hit when we arrived home and met Priya's ENT doctor to go over the results of her sleep study--NOT GOOD!  We honestly thought going into the sleep study that it was just a formality prior to her cleft surgery.  Boy, were we wrong!  The doctor was very concerned over the results.  She failed the study and failed it miserably.  She stopped breathing over 150 times, and her oxygen saturation went as low as 80% at least 30 times--if I remember correctly; almost everything he said went out the door the moment he mentioned Priya would likely need a tracheotomy.  He diagnosed her with severe obstructive sleep apnea and thought she needed a tracheotomy and tongue reduction prior to her cleft palate surgery. The tracheotomy would be a way to bypass her large tongue that falls back and obstructs her airway at night. The doctor did say we can try a CPAP to force oxygen into her airway at night, but most children don't usually tolerate it well, and he isn't hopeful it will be a solution for her.  He told us he hopes she proves him wrong.  I asked him about a nasal trumpet like she had towards the end of her NICU stay which is a tube inserted into one side of her nose that bypasses her tongue through one nostril, which he admitted could be an option, but likely not a good long-term fix, as older babies don't tolerate them well and like to pull them out. The type of tongue reduction her ENT suggested she needs (base of tongue ablation) involves a lot of post-op swelling and also affects the muscles that assist in swallowing.  Even if other avenues to control sleep apnea worked for now, he would want a tracheotomy before doing a tongue reduction.  We have a STAT CPAP trial/evaluation first thing Monday morning.  We are hoping above all hopes that the CPAP works.  If not, a tongue reduction, she will have a tracheotomy by mid-November at the latest, a tongue reduction at the end of December or early January, and her cleft palate repair around her first birthday.  Not the best year of firsts for my sweet girl!


UPDATE:  I love Priya's pulmonologist! He wants to hold off on CPAP and try having her sleep prone (on tummy) on a resQ wedge with a pulse ox first. Ordering her oxygen to be used if her O2 drops below 90. Will see her in two weeks and may reorder a different type sleep study. He said her nasal pathway is irritated and swollen ( from eating solids with large cleft palate) and seems to be obstructing air also (besides large tongue) and wants to treat that first. She also has another ear infection, but that's nothing new. He didn't even discuss potential for trach at this time except he wants to avoid. Relief!!! He disagrees with doing base of tongue ablation because results are poor and it's a horrible procedure!

UPDATE II:  Our first night with the pulse ox and O2 went awesome!  Priya slept MOST of the night on her belly, and her oxygen dropped to 94% only once.  The rest of the night, her oxygen saturation was 98-100%.  



Thursday, September 5, 2013

GROWING, LEARNING, CONQUERING NEW THINGS


Priya is halfway through her first year!!!  She is six months old!  I can't believe it!  She had her six month checkup today and weights 16 lbs 8 oz and 25 3/4" tall.  So far, everything is going great!  She had her first taste of solids (prunes) on Tuesday, which she absolutely LOVED!  She tried taking the spoon from me and reached for the bowl.  That girl loves to eat!  
She has been working on getting her toes in her mouth for a while now, but finally managed the feat (of her feet) yesterday!  I haven't managed to get a pic just yet!  She still hates tummy time and is trying to bypass anything to do with it, so she has been trying out a different way to get around...back crawling.  So far, it isn't working out for her.

Priya meets with her orthopedic doc for the first time tomorrow to start follow up of her two hemivertebrae. Hopefully nothing with become of them, but better to watch them than not.  Tomorrow night, the two of us will be spending the night away from home for a sleep study.  It is something she has to do before her eventual cleft palate surgery or tongue surgery (if needed).

We had a visit from Priya's Uncle Lee and her Aaja and Aaji over the Labor Day weekend.  It wasn't a very long visit, but we soaked up the family time we could get.  We also Face Timed her Uncle Joey.  Next week, the two of us fly to Montana to see MY family!  My brother-in-law, Craig, and my niece and nephew have not met Priya yet, and my dad hasn't seen her since she was a month old!  Priya will also get to meet someone very, very special for the first time, her great-grandad!  Unfortunately, we have to leave her daddy behind to work and will miss him terribly. 


Tuesday, August 20, 2013

I AM RICH!


I am RICH! I am so fortunate that I live in a home. I can control the temp to make my sleeping daughter comfy. I live in a "safe" neighborhood, and just in case it's not, I have an alarm. I was able to put her to bed with a full stomach tonight, as I do every night. If she falls sick tomorrow, I have access to good medical care. Her clothes and bedding are clean. Disease-carrying pests are controlled. My daughter has the same opportunities as anyone else, nothing to hold her back. If she applies herself, she can do anything. Some people cannot say ANY of this. I am rich!

Monday, August 19, 2013

AH!  FRIENDS!


Mike and I had a WONDERFUL weekend seeing good friends from Nashville!  Bill and Shelly Colburn came for a very brief visit, but we are so appreciative they drove all this way to spend some time with us.  It just felt so GOOD to be in the company of good friends!  The moment they left, Mike and I wanted to follow them and yell DON'T LEAVE!!!!!!!  That is the ONE thing that really sucks about living in Charlotte right now...our friends aren't HERE!

THANKFUL FOR ALL THE GOOD


I am SO THANKFUL every day for all the good (and there is lots of it) in my life.  I have a loving and supportive family, a husband who is a wonderful, intelligent, kind human being, good friends (who I miss terribly BTW), health, a career I love (when I am doing it), a home to come back to, food (lots and good quality) in my kitchen, and my ever-so-sweet, strong and beautiful baby girl.  Sure, we have had some rough spots in our journey with her and we will have some more coming up, but overall, she is healthy and thriving!  She is AMAZING!

This week, another family in one of my support groups lost their sweet little girl.  She was just a month younger than Priya.  Her omphalocele was much larger and more complicated that Priya's, and her road has been difficult.  Lots of large O babies do well like Priya, but some just have a tougher time, and Feighlyn had a really tough time.  Her and her family have been going through one obstacle after another, and many of us have been going through the obstacles with them emotionally.  The MOO group is a very tight-knit group, and we follow eachother's families throughout our little O-babies' lives.

I am so fortunate, so very fortunate.  There is no rhyme or reason to why I got the beautiful Beckwith Wiedemann baby with a small O and this family got the beautiful large omphalocele baby with all the complications.  It just is, and it's...hard...and sad.

The fact that we have technology to connect us to other people who can feel our joys over little things that other parents might very well take for granted and worries that other parents will probably never have to deal with is such a blessing.  We can check in with one another, ask questions, share stories and anecdotes, and cry with one another.  We can vent to people who understand when no one else can.  We can let each other know when we will be in someone else's neck of the woods for a meetup.  We can pray for or send someone supplies we no longer need to someone who does.  It is awesome to have such a community with its connections.  So much good comes from it, but also some heartache, and this week has been a heartache week.

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

WHEN THE LIGHTS GO OUT


When the light goes out, how great is the darkness!

Priya is the light of my life! She lights up my world like no one and nothing else can.  She makes every day brighter by just being in it.  I cannot imagine going a day without seeing her beautiful, bright eyes and sweet, happy smile!  This week, one of my Beckwith-Wiedemann families lost their little light.  He was just two months shy of his second birthday.   My heart hurts so much for them.  

It is not uncommon for kids with BWS to need trachs to assist with breathing through their airways.  Eventually they are able to be weaned from their trachs, but it can take some time.  When Priya was in the NICU, there was a certain point where we thought she might need airway assistance by trach, but fortunately that wasn't the case for her.  Well, this little boy did need one, and he pulled it out while sleeping this past week and and never woke up.  

Ouch.  Heartache.