Thursday, October 31, 2013

HAPPIEST HALLOWEEN EVER!


This is a first Halloween for both Priya AND Daddy!  So much fun!  We enjoyed an awesome neighborhood parade, music in the park, and trunk-or-treat with our neighbors last week.  Tonight, we are meeting up some neighbors and some of their pre-school class to have pizza and then go trick-or-treating (guess who will be enjoying the candy this year).  Holidays are SO MUCH better when you have kids!


If this is our future, I am feeling better already!  

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

IT TAKES A VILLAGE


They say it takes a village to raise a child.  For us, it takes 10 specialists.  Fortunately, though, that has been reduced by one after today.  Priya had an appointment with her allergist this afternoon, and it looks like we will no longer be needing her services.  This is good news for both Butch and Kitt--even dairy--but may not be so good for Priya's tonsils, as this means they are likely enlarged due to organomegaly secondary to BWS and not an allergy. This means that if they cause too much trouble with breathing and sleeping, they will have to be removed. Time will tell.

EVER-PROUD


I was playing with Priya this morning, and we had a moment.  Well, I had a moment anyway.  We were playing with one of those toys where you stack color rings on a peg.  Today was the first day she took all the rings off by herself.  But then she ALMOST got one of them back on the peg, and I gasped and almost cried!  I thought to myself, "What is the big deal, Tanya?  Even monkeys can put the rings back on the peg."  But it's my little girl--the one that started off as a crying little baby in the hospital, completely helpless--and now she is growing up and learning things so fast!  This week she has also started making the sign and "uh" sound for "up."  I am so proud of her!  Now I get it.  Parents are proud of everything their children do, even though other children may be doing a hundred cooler things or even doing the same things faster or better.  We are just proud!  Isn't that great, though?  Isn't it a wonderful thing to have someone always proud of you?








Monday, October 28, 2013

TODAY, I LOOKED INTO THE FACE OF GOD.


While watching Priya sleep this morning, I pondered some things in my mind... Like, how easy it is to see
'God" in the face of your own child--all the Love and Power and Mystery of the Universe wrapped up in the package of that face, those eyes, that nose, those lips.  But, then, if every parent with a stable heart and mind can see "God" in the face of their own child, why is it so difficult for us to see "God" in the face of every person we come in contact with (the stranger on the street, the coworker,the client, the patient, the other driver on the road, the criminal, the addict, the homeless person, the politician in the news, the spouse)?  Aren't we all children that have grown up?  Haven't we all been the face of "God" to a parent?

Love is like a magnifying glass that helps us see what we cannot see without it.  It takes thoughtful or prayerful awareness to look at everyone through the lens of Love and see "God," but it's what our world needs the most.  It's no wonder Jesus said that if you have shown a kindness to even the "least of these," you have in truth done it to Me.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

I WAS BLIND; BUT NOW I SEE.


Before I saw my daughter's first congenital birth defect on ultrasound at 12.5 weeks pregnant, I was a bit blind, and I am not sure why to be honest. The first time I saw a baby with an omphalocele, I didn't like what I saw. But then I became a MOO (mother of omphalocele), and suddenly all I could see were strong, beautiful, and amazing babies. Then I found out my daughter has Beckwith Wiedemann Syndrome, and when I first saw pics of BWS babies, I didn't like what I saw. Then I became a member of a BWS support group and eventually welcomed by BWS baby into the world and fell in LOVE with what I saw. When I first saw babies with clefts, I didn't like what I saw. Then I learned my daughter had a cleft palate and became a part of the cleft lip and cleft palate world, and now all I see are seriously gorgeous babies. I am so thankful my world is bigger, better, and more beautiful! I am so grateful to be a part of three amazing communities of babies, children, parents, and adults.

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

I don't know WHAT was up with the crazy sleep study.  Priya's oxygen levels seem to be just fine no matter what position she is sleeping in.  She does have an occasional drops in her O2 saturation, but they are VERY rare (not even once a day) and only last a second.  She sleep restlessly and snores a lot and generally sounds terrible when she is sleeping sometimes, but her oxygen does not seem to correlate with the findings of the sleep study.  I definitely think we need a redo.

Priya seems to be doing well.  She is growing--oh my, is she growing!  She loves to eat, that girl!  Avocados are the only thing she doesn't seem to be super-fond of.  She scarfs everything else down, including any kind of medicine I have to give her.

New things she is doing include reaching for us or for whatever she wants to have, including food on the table.  When my sweet little girl reaches for ME...melt, melt, melt!  She is also rolling from her back to tummy more, which is great, because she still isn't a huge fan of laying on her tummy.  Pat-a-cake makes me laugh now, because I will go through the motions with her hands and then sometimes just have her watch me.  When I tell her it's her turn, she will take my hands and make me do it again.  Soooo CUTE!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

TURBULENCE


Priya's first flight went smoothly.  I had spent two months prior worrying about the potential for disaster of flying alone with her to Montana, but she was an amazing travel partner!  We had a great time!  She got loads of attention when we got there, met her great-granddad, cousins, and Uncle Craig, went shopping, watched her cousin play volleyball, went to kindergarten to see her aunt's class, visited her grandparents at their workplaces, and pet a a teeny, tiny puppy.

Unfortunately, the turbulence hit when we arrived home and met Priya's ENT doctor to go over the results of her sleep study--NOT GOOD!  We honestly thought going into the sleep study that it was just a formality prior to her cleft surgery.  Boy, were we wrong!  The doctor was very concerned over the results.  She failed the study and failed it miserably.  She stopped breathing over 150 times, and her oxygen saturation went as low as 80% at least 30 times--if I remember correctly; almost everything he said went out the door the moment he mentioned Priya would likely need a tracheotomy.  He diagnosed her with severe obstructive sleep apnea and thought she needed a tracheotomy and tongue reduction prior to her cleft palate surgery. The tracheotomy would be a way to bypass her large tongue that falls back and obstructs her airway at night. The doctor did say we can try a CPAP to force oxygen into her airway at night, but most children don't usually tolerate it well, and he isn't hopeful it will be a solution for her.  He told us he hopes she proves him wrong.  I asked him about a nasal trumpet like she had towards the end of her NICU stay which is a tube inserted into one side of her nose that bypasses her tongue through one nostril, which he admitted could be an option, but likely not a good long-term fix, as older babies don't tolerate them well and like to pull them out. The type of tongue reduction her ENT suggested she needs (base of tongue ablation) involves a lot of post-op swelling and also affects the muscles that assist in swallowing.  Even if other avenues to control sleep apnea worked for now, he would want a tracheotomy before doing a tongue reduction.  We have a STAT CPAP trial/evaluation first thing Monday morning.  We are hoping above all hopes that the CPAP works.  If not, a tongue reduction, she will have a tracheotomy by mid-November at the latest, a tongue reduction at the end of December or early January, and her cleft palate repair around her first birthday.  Not the best year of firsts for my sweet girl!


UPDATE:  I love Priya's pulmonologist! He wants to hold off on CPAP and try having her sleep prone (on tummy) on a resQ wedge with a pulse ox first. Ordering her oxygen to be used if her O2 drops below 90. Will see her in two weeks and may reorder a different type sleep study. He said her nasal pathway is irritated and swollen ( from eating solids with large cleft palate) and seems to be obstructing air also (besides large tongue) and wants to treat that first. She also has another ear infection, but that's nothing new. He didn't even discuss potential for trach at this time except he wants to avoid. Relief!!! He disagrees with doing base of tongue ablation because results are poor and it's a horrible procedure!

UPDATE II:  Our first night with the pulse ox and O2 went awesome!  Priya slept MOST of the night on her belly, and her oxygen dropped to 94% only once.  The rest of the night, her oxygen saturation was 98-100%.