Friday, December 28, 2012

WADDLING IN NASHVILLE AGAIN


We made it back safe and still pregnant to Nashville after the Christmas holiday.  We had a nice time in Montana.  Mike got to go skiing, and I did a lot of relaxing.  

I had an ultrasound and consult with my doctor yesterday.  The fluid has finally stabilized; hopefully will stay that way after today, when I stop taking the Indomethacin...YIKES!




Wednesday, December 19, 2012

BABY GIRL IS SWIMMING


So, my Indomethacin doesn't seem to be doing a good enough job.  My fluid is still increasing; it is now 36 cm.  This probably explains why I am getting short of breath again and why I couldn't sleep last night.  I can't imagine what it would be if I wasn't on the medication, though.  I don't want to think about it, because I can only take it for another week.  After that, who knows how much fluid will start building up, so I may need an amniocentesis to drain some of the fluid if it starts affecting my breathing too much.  The doctors will be monitoring the fluid weekly.  

While my contractions seem to be less, I am still having too many, so the day after I stop taking the Indomethacin, I will start taking Procardia, which will hopefully help prevent preterm labor.  My cervix appears to be stable, so that is probably the best news.  

The doctors approved me to travel home to Montana for the holidays, so that is good.  I imagine the flight will be pretty uncomfy, so I am not looking forward to the traveling part of Christmas at all, but I am really looking forward to seeing my family.  

Sunday, December 16, 2012

INDOMETHACIN, OH HOW I LOVE THEE!


I have been taking indomethacin since Friday,and I think it is already starting to work.  My contractions don't seem to be as frequent, and there is a little more give in my belly, which makes me feel more comfortable, AND I can sleep again!!!!

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

BIG BABY, SMALL MOMMA


We had another ultrasound and OB consult today.  Priya is measuring 3 weeks ahead and is growing in the 96%.  My amniotic fluid is at a worrisome level, excessive.  My cervix is still closed, but a tiny bit shorter, 2.4 cm.  I have been having what I thought were normal Braxton Hicks contractions, but the OB thinks I am having them due to all the pressure I have from the amnioitc fluid.  They are painless contractions every 2 minutes.  So, tomorrow I start taking a drug that is supposed to help my uterus relax and hopefully cause Priya to have less urine output to decrease the amniotic fluid. The only problem is that I can only take this for approximately two more weeks, otherwise it could cause problems with her ductus arteriosis.  So, things might get crazy after 27 weeks if things go back to the current status quo.

We also met with the neonatologist, who was awesome.  She did paint what I feel to be a more realistic picture of what we can expect after Priya is born.  The information was pretty overwhelming.  No one wants to hear about IVs, intubations, various therapies/interventions, PICC lines, prolonged medical stays and all the medical stuff associated with possible complications.  She was encouraging, yet up front about obstacles with prematurity, omphaloceles, and BWS--all scary to me.  The neonatologist is also the first person to seriously refer to C-section, which is what I have just assumed would be what would happen in the end.  All the other docs have just kept telling me a vaginal delivery is always best, and if baby gets too big, then we will discuss cutting her out then.  I kept thinking, IF she gets too big?  Look at me!  Look at baby!  BWS!!!  I told the neonatologist that no one would discuss it much with me yet, and she just looked at me with a serious look and said, "You WILL be having a c-section."  The goal for now is to make it to at least 34 weeks, and every week after that is a huge bonus for baby.

We ended the day with a tour of the NICU, and for some reason, this is where I had my meltdown after digesting all the info the neonatologist gave us.  It was brief though. I figure those NICU nurses will see plenty of that in the days to come, so I didn't let it bother me too much. 

Mike is being a trooper, but I know he is really stressed about everything.  There is so much out of our control, so many unknowns, and so many things to think about.  It will be especially hard on him if I have to quit work and go on bedrest.  So, fingers crossed, lets hope that doesn't happen ANY time soon. 

Thursday, December 6, 2012

WHAT'S IN A NAME?


Our sweet baby girl really needs to have a name other than "Uno" or "baby girl."  So, we have officially named her Priya Rose.  Priya is an Indian name that means "dear" or "beloved."  We have had this name picked out for a baby girl even before we were ever serious about starting a family.  Priya shares her middle name, Rose, with my mom.  

Saturday, December 1, 2012

EXPONENTIAL GROWTH


Wow, I think I just outgrew my pajamas in  24 hours!  How scary is that.  I took a pic in my PJs just two nights ago, and then put them on last night to find that my belly isn't fitting in any more.  This exponentially growing belly needs to slow down!  I hope baby stops creating so much amniotic fluid and that it levels off.  A slow down in growth would be much appreciated as well.  That might not be the case, which is a scary thought, especially after the PJ incident last night.  Oh, the joys of BWS!  I guess the bright side of this is that it is "in season" to have a round, jolly belly this time of year.


Thursday, November 29, 2012

OH SO HAPPY!

Today we had consults with a geneticist and doctors at the Junior League Fetal Center at Vanderbilt.  They were awesome!  We felt so well taken care of by everyone there, and we got some really great and reassuring news today.

After a very thorough ultrasound and fetal echo, the doctors said they are very happy with the way baby's organs are looking.  They are not worried about her kidneys at this time.  Her omphalocele was classified as small by the surgeon, and he is confident that it will be an easy repair.  He feels that it is very likely that surgery can be done on day 2 and that she may be able to come home as early as the first week!  That sure beats the several months I've read about from others.  Time will tell.  We will, of course, have to remain flexible with expectations.   The single biggest factor at this point is keeping baby in utero as long as possible.  Some things working against us here are 1)  she is growing in the 91% for weight; 2) I have polyhydramnios (lots of amniotic fluid causing increased uterine pressure; 3) my cervix is short (although not dynamic as of now).  So, I am at very high risk for preterm labor.  They are not putting me on bed rest unless they see further changes in my cervix, which will be rechecked in two weeks.

We found out that the type of BWS that baby has is a sporadic event, which means we are not likely to have another child with BWS and baby girl is not likely to have a child with BWS.

So, for now it looks like we have the best case scenario for our situation.  We cannot know for certain what we are dealing with, however, until baby is born.  But, overall, the news we received today was GREAT

To explain BWS the best way I can understand it is this.  Baby's genetic info is all there and perfectly mapped.  The problem came when the maternal half of a pair of genes (?from cluster 15) on the 11th chromosome did not get turned on.  There is no explanation why this happened.  Baby did not inherit this and nothing that anyone knows of caused this.  It was just some random fluke.  The job of this part is to control cell growth, so since it is off, it is anyone's guess as to what will be the outcome of cell growth, and what parts of baby girl will be affected in a detrimental way.  Every case is different.  If the paternal half had not turned on, it would have had no effect, but because it was the maternal half that is "off" we got BWS.   This type of BWS is the most common.  It is very complicated, so I might not have it perfectly right.  This is just my understanding.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

OH SO SWEET


















I woke up feeling terrible this morning.  I was very uncomfortable and not quite sure what was going on.  While I was trying to figure out what might be up, I realized I hadn't felt baby girl kicking all morning, and morning is usually her busiest time.  So, I went to work in tears fearing the worst only to peak in on a VERY busy baby girl who had just flipped back into breech position after being vertex for a while.  So, I got much relief AND some cute pics and video of baby sucking her thumb (22w4d).



This afternoon, I had another ultrasound and fetal echo with my high-risk OB.  By the time we got there, baby had decided to flip back into vertex position, and I started feeling the kicking better again.  Baby girl is growing very big, and she is surrounded by a lot of fluid, making me look and feel like I am in my third trimester already.  While her kidneys are prominent, the doctor says they are still within a normal range for now, so that made me feel much better.  Her omphalocele is also getting smaller, which will make surgery easier.  Things can change as she continues to grow, but for now the news is pretty good.  Tomorrow, we have more doctor consults with the people who will be handling her after delivery.  

Saturday, November 24, 2012

I feel like I am getting stronger each day and that the momma bear is coming out.  I was around babies last night and did pretty good even after they left.  At first, I tried avoiding one-on-one interaction with one, but ended up holding and rocking her to sleep and loving every second.  I am starting to feel that I really will be able to handle whatever comes our way.  So, move over BWS.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Next Wednesday, we have another ultrasound and consult with our high risk OB, and the following day we have consults with a slew of other doctors--a geneticist, pediatric surgeon, neonatologist, etc.--I can't remember all of them.

Currently, baby's O looks the same, her kidneys are still prominent overall (not as echogenic but starting to enlarge a bit with some reflux), her abdomen is measuring ahead of her dates, and I have polyhydramnios (excessive amniotic fluid, upper limits of normal is 24 cm; I have almost 30 cm at 21 weeks gestation), and she frequently appears to be wrapped up in her very long cord.  All of these things go with the BWS.  I would like to say I am handling this well, but I'm not.  If I am not focusing really hard on something else, I cry.  You'd think I'd run out of tears, but I don't. 

Friday, November 16, 2012

"O" NO 


So we got the call today we were hoping not to get.  Baby girl has Beckwith Weidemann Syndrome.  In the back of my head, I have been worried about this for a while due to a number of things I have been seeing on ultrasound, but I was hoping it was just me worrying.  It wasn't.

 http://www.beckwith-wiedemannsyndrome.org



Monday, November 12, 2012

"O" SO BIG


We are 20 weeks today, but oh boy, am I looking bigger than that, and so is baby girl!  Her abdomen is measuring almost 2 weeks ahead, and she is swimming around in an excessive amount of amniotic fluid.  So, I am looking more like I am 28 weeks pregnant right now.  No wonder prenatal yoga is already getting much harder.  Yikes!  Here is a pic of baby touching her toes at 19 1/2 weeks.


And here she is just looking cute.  

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

O FOLLOW-UP

We are at 18 1/2 weeks today.  Went to the high risk OB for an ultrasound and consult.  Baby girl is measuring in the 55%.  Today, the O looks "moderate," containing bowel and a small portion of the gallbladder and liver.  Her kidneys still look echogenic (bright), but they are normal in size, and her amniotic fluid is normal, so the doctor isn't worried about them.  We go back for another ultrasound at the end of November.  By then, the micro array to check for Beckwith Weidemann Syndrome should be back.   So we wait.   I originally thought the doctor was ordering micro array testing for a large range of genetic abnormalities, but he decided to focus in on BWS due to the cost difference of $2200 and because he felt the other was looking for a needle in a haystack.  I wish he would have consulted with us before changing the lab order, but I guess I will just have to trust his judgement on this one.

Friday, October 26, 2012

WHEN NEGATIVE IS POSITIVE

Our amnio results came back NEGATIVE, which is positive!  It means they did not find a chromosomal abnormality!  More tests to come, but this is a huge positive and quite a relief.  Fortunately, I had things to do today to keep my mind off the wait for results.  This morning I knitted.  This afternoon, I made a complete and terrible mess between patients at work.  We are going to a masquerade tomorrow night, so I was hot gluing feather and butterflies and sequined flowers to my mask--lots of fun!  Tonight, we will be going to the last Full Moon Pickin' Party at Warner Park.  Today we also found out my brother-in-law in D.C. got a new job with better pay today, so everyone is really excited for him.  Overall, today has been a great day!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

I AM KIND OF IN LOVE...

Little girl at 17w5d
                                             




Saturday, October 20, 2012

FISH RESULTS

We are still waiting on the full results from our amniocentesis, but we did the FISH, which gives preliminary  amnio results for detection of T21 (Downs), T18 (Edwards), and T13 (Pataus).  The results are supposed to be back in 24-48 hours, but I didn't get mine for a whole week.  I did finally get them on Friday afternoon, and baby girl is negative for the most common three chromosomal abnormalities, and this pretty much tells us they don't think she has a form of mosaicism of  those three as well.  Now we just have to wait for the results for the rest of the chromosomes.  If that comes back negative, then we will send out amniotic fluid and blood for the micro array test, which looks at more specific genetic information to look for possible syndromes we might be able to expect/prepare for.  Those results come back approximately one month after the specimen is sent out (which won't be done until amnio results come back).

In the meantime, I am knitting baby girl a blanket, something to keep my mind off the craziness and focused on the future.  I am listening to baby Mozart while I do it, which lifts my spirits and puts my mind in a peaceful, happy state of mind.  


Thursday, October 18, 2012

OUR LITTLE ACROBAT

This is one busy little girl. She is crazy busy flipping up and down and twisting all over the place.  She is almost 17 weeks old.  Today was the first time her kidneys didn't look so echogenic/bright on ultrasound...so that boosted my spirits a lot.  I have an ultrasound scheduled at my high risk OB at the end of the month, so we'll see how things look at that appointment.  

Seeing her today totally boosted my spirits.  I am so glad I got to see her sweet face.





Not only is little baby girl growing bigger, so is her mom.





Monday, October 15, 2012

A-DAY


I had my amnio today.  It really wasn't a big deal.  No numbing or anything, just one stick.  The initial entry felt like getting blood drawn, then a quick jab through the uterus (doing it quick helps to make sure the amnion and chorion stay fused) felt like a menstrual cramp, nothing intolerable.  It was more scary anticipating it than painful.

Also, the doctor is finally convinced it is an omphalocele that our little girl is sporting, so...it's official.



Thursday, October 11, 2012

FRIDAY IS ALMOST HERE, BUT MONDAY IS COMING...

I am looking forward to the weekend, as always, but I think I am looking more forward to a Monday for once, and that is because it's my amnio day.  The idea of an amnio used to scare me a lot, but now I just want to get it done and over with in hopes it will give us some more info (or rule out info) on our little girl.  I am also hoping the high-risk OB can give me their thoughts (hopefully not just bad ones) on her kidneys.  From what I can tell so far, her head and heart are looking good, but I know it's still early.  For me, the kidneys are the most worrisome right now, far more worrisome than her O. I am hopeful for now, because her kidneys are a normal size so far and her bladder and amniotic fluid look okay for now.   I know things can change at any time--even after she is born as far as function goes, but I hope I am just a paranoid mom and that all my worry is for nothing.

UPDATE:  The high-risk OB doesn't seem to be worried about her kidneys for now.  They really don't think anything is remarkable (other than her O) until she gets a little further along in gestational age.  I was disappointed they didn't at least try to look at her anatomy (like the heart) in a more detailed fashion, but I guess they are right not to get ahead of themselves.  Just because we can't see something at 16-17 weeks, doesn't mean we won't see something further along.  And first thing is first, get amnio results and go from there.
 



Friday, October 5, 2012


GROWING

Our little girl is growing so big.   Her "O" is still there, growing right along with her.  She changes so much from week to week.  She likes to have her chin tucked in, and the cord is usually around her head, so it's hard to get a good pic.

The thing that has me concerned right now is that her kidneys are echogenic (bright), and that's usually not a good thing.  I just wish we knew she was going to be okay.




Tuesday, October 2, 2012

MATERNAL FETAL MEDICINE APPOINTMENT


I went to see the high risk OB today, and she said it is still too difficult to tell for sure if baby has a true omphalocele or gastroschesis. They didn't utilize 3D if they had it, though, and I have seen the defect on 3D at work, and I am pretty sure it is an omphalocele.  I would be shocked but oh so happy if I was wrong (much less to worry about with gastroschesis).  She also said not to take too much stock in the results of the MaterniT21 test, because baby could have a type of mosaicism of one of those chromosomal abnormalities, where cells within the same person can have a different genetic makeup (abnormal and normal).  She said an amnio will be more informative.  I wish someone would have told me that BEFORE I took the blood test, as it is quite expensive.   There is still a pretty good chunk of it that insurance doesn't pay for.  Live and learn, I guess.   

She also tried to explain what I might be able to expect with possible outcomes upon delivery if we make it that far.  It was pretty overwhelming, so I will be glad to take Mike to my amnio appointment so he can maybe keep up better than I did. 

So, not much information today.  Next step, amniocentesis on Monday, October 15th.  Results usually take 10 business days.

Feeling kind of bummy today.  I feel like I am back at square one with no real info on our little girl.  It's all a wait-and-see type of thing.  My sister called me to give me a pep talk; it did help.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

SUGAR AND SPICE





Our genetic test confirmed what I have been suspecting...we are having a girl!  I cannot wait to put this pretty little headband on her tiny little head (a gift from my dear friend Kristin).





This is our baby at 14 weeks.  I love her cute little feet.

ALL IN A DAY


Living one day at at a time is pretty hard to do when you have a baby with an "O".  Anything can happen, and that uncertainty can sure get the best of me some days.

Waiting for our test results yesterday was nerve wracking, and it seemed like all my patients for the morning were anatomy scans, and all the babies were perfectly normal and unusually gorgeous scans.  One mom was upset because she was having a girl, and I wanted to unload on her (ie, yell at the top of my lungs in the angriest voice possible) to get her priorities straight and be thankful for a perfectly healthy looking baby and for not having to worry about all the things we have to worry about with ours.  I was so angry and felt so unlucky.  I scan SO many healthy babies every day, but my baby isn't healthy.  It was a terrible, awful low point for me.  The resentment had just built up to a huge burden and I couldn't scan one more baby.  My coworkers were really supportive and sent me home around 1:00 pm, which I am really grateful for.

We finally got the call from our doctor's office at 4:53 pm that gave us the good news that baby is negative for T21, 18, and 13.  So, yesterday, we tried to just take in the good news and put our minds off the other.  We walked to downtown Franklin with our friend, Al, and then later we went and sat outside one of our favorite coffee shops in Nashville; it was such a beautiful day/evening.  After the sun set, we went to the Full Moon Pickin' Party at our favorite park and listened to blue grass.  It was the perfect thing to do to unwind and get in the fall festive spirit.

The day had started out really terrible and turned out to be really wonderful.  It was such an enjoyable and peaceful evening, and all I can think is how fortunate I am to be living my life with my wonderful husband. Our life together is awesome, and no matter what news a day brings, I get to spend every day with him.  Lucky me.

Friday, September 28, 2012

ONE TEST DOWN


Today was such a hard day.  I was anxious to know if I'd get my test results back and if so, what would they tell us.  My nerves got the best of me, and I came home early from work.  My manager and coworkers were so understanding and supportive.  I was a wreck.  Mike was supposed to be in Chicago for his cousin's wedding, but he canceled his trip on Thursday to be home with me when we got the results.  My doctor called me at the end of the day, and gave us some good news.  The Materni T21 test results came back the best we could hope for.  Results are negative for T21, 18, and 13, which are the most common chromosomal abnormalities.  We will still have an amnio to look at the other chromosomes.  So one test down, more to go.  But the good news is one test IS down, and results were good.

Monday, September 24, 2012

HEARTBEAT


Today, I heard Uno's heart beat.  It was kind of hard to really enjoy listening to it, because I was wondering the whole time if the doctor could already hear any evidence of an abnormality.  I figure it is probably unlikely this early, but if she did, she didn't say anything.  She said she wasn't sure when my labwork was going to come back for the MaterniT21 screening but hopes it will be this week.  She will call me when she gets it (after she talks to the high risk doctors).  I asked if I should still get an amnio if my results come back positive for T21, 18, or 13, and she gave me an emphatic, "YES!"  Apparently, 10-13 of her patients have had false positive tests, even though the test is supposed to be 99% accurate.  So, I am not sure how I am supposed to feel if the results do come back positive...if it might not be in the end.  Hopeful til the amnio, I guess.




Sunday, September 23, 2012

WHEN YOU NEED A LAUGH

This might be one of my favorite videos of all time:

ONE DAY AT A TIME

As Mike and I were having breakfast and reading the news this morning, a song my parents used to play when I was a kid came to my mind, One Day at a Time, by Christy Lane.  Mike's parents used to listen to it when he was a kid too.

One of the lessons Mike and I have learned already is that we will let each day's good be good and each day's bad be bad.  So, Thursday and Friday were pretty bad, when we first learned and then confirmed UNO's omphalocele, but Saturday and today have been really good.  

We are doing really good.  Both of us have really had great lives, and we currently have a great life together.  If we embrace the good, then we can freely embrace the bad too.  Currently, we are holding out hope that the "bad" stuff will be a short little blip in an otherwise long, healthy, happy, great life with UNO.  And if things take a turn for the worse, we will be sad when we need to be sad, but we will be resilient and life will still be good, one day at a time.



Friday, September 21, 2012

"O" BABY



I really didn't plan to start a blog about my pregnancy with our baby UNO, nicknamed that because he/she was originally one of two when we first found out we were pregnant.  We are currently 13 weeks along, and this pregnancy has taken some twists and turns, so we will do our best to keep our friends and family updated on what is going on with little UNO.

UNO has an abdominal wall defect; the radiologists think it is an omphalocele.  This is a pretty serious thing to find on ultrasound.  I, personally, have only seen two cases, and 2 cases of another wall defect called gastroschisis, in seven years.  Omphaloceles are where the baby's abdominal contents are herniated into the base of the umbilical cord through an opening that failed to close in the abdominal wall before 12 weeks.  It CAN be an isolated finding, but it is associated with chromosomal abnormalities in 30-50% of cases, and other congenital defects in 50% of cases (cardiac defects are the most common, but the list goes on).  

The BEST case scenario for us at this point is that UNO will be delivered a little early and whisked away to surgery at delivery to try to close the defect, and will have just a two week stay in NICU.  Sometimes hospital stays are much longer.  They can do this if it is small enough, which so far UNOs is fairly small (bowel only), and no other more major surgeries need to be taken care of first (ie, heart).  If there are other more major complications present (ie heart defects) or if the omphalocele gets too big (containing more than bowel, like stomach and liver), then we may have to "paint and wait" the omphalocele so that it can be surgically repaired at a later time, giving the skin and abdominal muscles time to grow big enough to cover the area.  Most babies who have isolated omphaloceles that are surgically repaired grow up to be normal, healthy, happy babies with tummy scars.  We are hoping that is UNO.

Worse case scenarios are many and can be complex.  There are many associated syndromes, but we are just taking it one step at a time.  I had a new blood test done today that has a 99% accuracy rate for detecting T21 (Down's Syndrome), T18 (most of these babies have a score of abnormalities, including severe mental disability, and often die in utero; there is a 10% survival rate up to 1 year; overall, it is often a fatal abnormality), and T13 (severe fatal abnormality; babies die in utero or within hours of birth).  I am hoping to have the results back by next Friday, but that would be the earliest.  We might be in for a long week.

There is also something called Beckwith Wiedemann that is associated with omphaloceles, but it is very rare (10%), usually not lethal, but has a number of associated abnormalities ranging from mild to severe.  There is a test we can have done for that, but it is only 80% accurate.  Some markers can show up on ultrasound later, but most times the diagnosis is made after a child is born.  

Between 16-18 weeks, we will have an amniocentesis to confirm the diagnosis of T21, 18, or 13, or to pick up whatever extra information we can if my blood test from today comes back negative.  If these tests are all negative, then we will just have to wait until the anatomy scan around 18-22 weeks and a fetal echocardiogram (not sure when) to see if we can pick up on any other abnormalities of the heart or other.  We are hoping so hard that it is just an isolated omphalocele.  There is a possiblity that UNO has something called gastroschesis instead, which is where the intestines are not covered by the memberane around the base of the umbilical cord, but floating outside of the body through a hole adjacent to the cord.  Right now, it is a little difficult to tell, because UNO is so small, but multiple radiologists I work with think it is most likely the omphalocele.  If it is gastroschesis, it is usually an isolated abnormality without chromosomal abnormalities, and if babies make it to birth without the bowel being damaged too much, survival is in the 90th percentile.  It is just a matter of how much bowel is exposed to the amniotic fluid and if there is too much twisting/kinking of it.  If it's not much, babies can have surgery the same day as delivery and may only spend a couple weeks to a few months in NICU.  Sometimes the surgery has to be postponed a while.   These babies also grow to be overall happy, healthy kids, but can have some long term digestive tract issues, as you can imagine.

WARNING, please do not just google omphalocele or gastroschesis and read the stats and look at the pictures!!!  It will freak you out.  The best thing to do is google "omphalocele blog" and look at the stories of other families having "O" babies and recorded their them on individual blogs.  There are stories from diagnosis to delivery to surgery to life after.  Pics are still scary but very encouraging when you see the "after" pics and see how amazing these kids and their families are doing.  There are the bad stories out there too, but we have to just hope for the best and deal with one thing at a time.  What will be, will be.  We are grieving not having a "normal" and "healthy" baby, early parenting process, etc, but we'll be okay.  We are talking it out together and being really honest with our feelings, so don't worry about us.  We will keep you posted on what we know when we know it.  

So that's what I know.   We're sad, but we're okay.